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METAL @MetalSays@staging.brighteon.social
About
"They call me ME†∆L! I'm the Lead Singing Bass Playing Front Man for Forever's End, an ORIGINAL NATIONWIDE AMERICAN HEAVY METAL BAND, I founded in 1986 & Deemed 'Unessential' since 2019."
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Landline: (707) 766-9276
Email: metalsays@gmail.com
"You've no need to assume or wonder, ask."
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Member since Jun 2022
About
"They call me ME†∆L! I'm the Lead Singing Bass Playing Front Man for Forever's End, an ORIGINAL NATIONWIDE AMERICAN HEAVY METAL BAND, I founded in 1986 & Deemed 'Unessential' since 2019."
"Please Help! I Need Your Support!"
https://www.gofundme.com/f/metalsays
https://givesendgo.com/metalsays
Landline: (707) 766-9276
Email: metalsays@gmail.com
"You've no need to assume or wonder, ask."
On 𝕏: https://x.com/METALSAYS
Visit the MetalSays Channel.
http://brighteon.com/channels/metalsays
Member since Jun 2022
Recent Media
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If I'm going to be treated like this, I want to say...
If there is anyone out there that I can Help by Renting a Room, I would like to assure you I am an asset to any Home. Truly a mutual benefit. If you Help me, I will Help You Back. Not to mention, I know God has got me & anyone that Helps me will be Blessed. I've watched that happen over & over to those that do. This is New for me. I'm just not used to having to ask for Help this way. I've aways been the one with the House or the one with the Room to Rent someone. Asking for Help for me is not my normal position, as for having a place to live or needing one or needing help in this way. I can pay up $500 a Month & more, & I always make where I am better that it was before I came along. Every place I've ever lived!
I'd much rather fix this & find someone to Share my House with.
I don't want to lose my Home. 
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If these are to be my last words online, I First want to say:
'Thank You to anyone who knows me or of me & the Music & things I've done & Supported it all! Thank You All! And also, as of late since being attacked & destroyed, I want to also Thank those of you that I may not know, yet those who have talked with me during this time. Really, I appreciate you! Though we haven't met I hope we do one day.'
Now, as of late, I know I've laid myself bear for you & even now stand naked before you all, honestly & to mine own detriment at times, as I openly & candidly have shared 'EVERYTHING' in my Life from Public to Private with the Public Square, so to speak, I've learned a lot about People & even myself from this all. For One I've learned people will turn on you without reasons given, yeah, yet for me personally 'The People' are the only reason I Live Now! Not for me. As for myself, I can't change that, nor do I want to. With that said, even being that I'm openly unabashedly standing naked before the World, I'm not ashamed of who I am still. I'm hurt by what we've become. Where are my Friends that do know me? I have no idea, they are all gone & none of them even care to understand, that do to life & the abuses I've had to get through, that I may even now, 'NEED THEM' to show they have Love for me by 'Reaching Out For Me' rather than the other way around. I need someone to reach out for me, is that bad? All my Friends online vanished 6 years ago, none have reached out for me since.
I spent my entire life helping others without being asked to help them. Now, that I need help, everyone has vanished! I don't know why, is the strangest part. I miss them, I Love them, I have not a single argument or fight with anyone, so I don't know why they never did come find me online after I got banned everywhere. They just NEVER did. That's hurt me for years now, still does!! I've been made to feel like I never happened. I've shown pictures of me Live on Stages from the Early 1980s' to ones like these. That's my Son at 5 Years Old in 2000 right before His Birthday!
Then again at 12 when I had the Kids all get on Stage with the band Live.
NOTE: My Son's turning 30 this Month! Love You Markus! I miss you very very much!
Just these pictures cover from 2000 to the one in my Livingroom here in 2020, at rehearsals with the band! Now I ask you, do you really think I'd have no friends online? All the Stages from 1982 to 2019, & I have no friends? YEAH RIGHT! That alone proves what has been done to me, yet not just to me... to all of us, actually.
FYI: I've decided that if I go into the Hospital, I won't be giving any number to call in case I die.
Who cares? It just doesn't seem to matter to anyone, & even if I am wrong, from my view, tell me, how would I know anyone does care if no one says a word. So, no... I won't be giving them anything but my own Home Phone. They'll never know, no one will be there. I'll just be gone!
GIF
When I say I don't feel Loved, it's those missing Friends, that I'm talking about!
I don't feel Loved by them because they've shown me none in 6 years. I know those few who've reached out to show me Love or to Help me, Love me & they know I Love them! We do talk, yet there are only about 10 of them & none of them talk with me or read my words online that I know of. If they do, they're doing it like spies spidering me, yet never saying a word!? And I wouldn't know if they are or aren't, I mean that about those who are, yet not saying a word & watching & reading my posts. That is like a sickness to me. I mean what kind of person would watch their friend being left for dead, yet not say a word? Is that even a Friend? So, doing that, if anyone is, is definitely strange behavior at the least. Kind of sick & sadistic actually. Lastly, I'll say this... I've honestly laid myself bear for the World to see! That's the Truth of it. I really am under threat with my life in danger of ending & everything I've done or accomplished set to be erased & no one I know reached out to stop it hardly. That will be the end of my story if this is allowed to continue. It will end with me needing help & no one that could help, even trying to. After a lifetime of helping people without having to be asked to. I can't stand the thought of that. YES! IT HURTS! A LOT!
I'm not ok & fading fast. As I scream in the public square for help, with almost no reply. When All I need is...
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If I saw anyone, I know suffering, so much they were posting it online, as I have been, I'd help them immediately. I definitely wouldn't watch & say nor do anything. I would at least talk to them, because sometimes, having a friend talk with you helps in a different kind of way.
And here I am, left here feeling that to the World Today, I'm not worth affording.
Like if I were on fire, people wouldn't even piss on it to put it out.
Having my life, being set to depend, on the Charity within the Hearts of the Children of God;
meaning people or the kindness of strangers, feels like a Death Sentence, for I've seen almost none.
It's very hurtful for me to See No Love almost at all!
Like today, I laid here all day unable to get up, needing help, & my phone didn't even ring today. Yeah, I feel so Loved. If I didn't wake up, I wonder how long it would be before it rang?
And if that happens, which it very well could, I'm not saying it will, I want it to, or that I feel like I'm going to die, I'm saying... it 'could' happen, & no one would find me for months possibly, weeks at the least. That's what I go to sleep having to try not to think about alone each night.
With that said, If I thought that I should go, I'd go to the hospital, which I may still do.
No one will know & I really don't think I'll come out, if I go in.
Lately, I haven't been sleeping well or eating enough & I'm dehydrated for sure.
Maybe I should go in, before I get much worse? We'll see?